If you’re a How to Live in Canada reader, you’ve noticed that over the last two months I did not write anything. Actually, I went to Brazil last month to visit my parents (away for 2 weeks) and came back at the end of June. At the beginning of this year my dad was diagnosed with a lung cancer (yes, he smoked a lot) and it is kind of crazy when you hear something like this. You think this will never happen in your family, but as soon as you know, you don’t know what to do.
When I decided to live in Canada, I knew that my parents will get older as well as myself. However, you think that this is not going to change your plans in a million years. I thought I had my brothers, my relatives, everybody is there: they can take care of everything. But once you’re away and not seeing them anymore, when it really touches you, you start to think if it is really worth to live in Canada.
I spent all the time I could with him. Went to the appointments, went to a chemotherapy session, stayed at home as much as possible. Then, the day I had to come back to Canada was one of the most difficult days in my life. Over the last 6 years that I’ve been living in Canada, I went to Brazil 4 times and he was always at the airport to say goodbye, see you later with a big and long hug. But this time my friend, this did not happen. For the first time in my life I cried like a child in front of him. I couldn’t say a word, but just looking at his eyes I’ve said everything he would like to hear from me.
I am not sure about the percentage of people that leave Canada and come back home – but I’d say that moments like this are common and it is not our fault when we decide to go back home. It is only the way that we are – humans. The uncertainty is now part of my life and I have to deal with it every day. I pray, I have a positive attitude but at the same time I have to be realistic.
What about the future? I am still living in Canada and I really plan to continue living here. However… well… the future only God knows. Let’s do our part and make this world a better place to live. Now, even more than ever, I am confident that I’ve changed the way I am. Every chance that I have to say “I love you”, from the bottom of my heart, I will. It is simple, but don’t wait until tomorrow to say something that you can say today. We never now what’s going to happen!
Enjoy the summer!